Trust

It is something that didn’t come easy. When I lost my faith I also lost my trust in people. It became a matter of guilty until proven innocent. And like Skylark I had found that I had trusted too easily and when my trust was betrayed my world turned upside down. If trusting someone can lead me to be hurt, then why should I? For a long time I felt the only person I could trust was myself.

It was a long time before I came to trust anyone again. I can’t say exactly what happened that allowed me to change, only that restoring my faith in Christ allowed me to trust again. I realised that I missed out on so much of life’s beauty because of my cynicism, because I could not bring myself to trust anyone. I was missing out on love, friendships, and happiness. I’ve come to realise that with faith in the Lord, even if those I love betray my confidence, I am still able to get back on my feet and forgive and forget.

Trust is a wonderful thing. It makes my world feel less bleak, less cold. Without it I found I was living a life filled with disappointments, a disappointment because I felt alone and there was no way around it. Sure enough there may come a time when my trust will be betrayed but I know when it happens I can trust that God will heal my wounds. Trust allowed me happiness, allowed me to experience the beautiful things in life.