Drowning

Everytime I find the strength to pick myself up and do what i need to do, I find that there is always something else that knocks me back down. Its like getting tossed around by waves. And the second you get a chance to come up for air another wave rolls over you sending you tumbling. It happens again and again and soon you start to lose hope that you'll ever get out of it alive.

Do you ever feel like you're drowning? Ever feel you have no control? Like there's no saving your own life? Feel like you've lost all sense of direction?

A really bad day at work has made me ask myself whether I'm cut out for this type of work. Made me reconsider my direction in life. My purpose. I started out helping adults and then i thought i needed to help kids... it's so much more difficult. I asked God whether this was what i am supposed to be doing. Is this my calling? I don't know. Because I don't know whether or not I have the strength to endure or the skill to deliver.

Is this what I'm meant to be doing? Am i meant to just hold on? Or is this a wake up call? Is God telling me that I should continue my search for something else?

Lord show me your light and guide me in the right direction. Please give me the wisdom to know what to do and the courage and strength to do what i need to.