Yesterday i just got back from Port Stephens. Our little weekend away was my birthday gift to him. We had fun just hanging out at the beach and relaxing. It was so good to spend some time alone with him. I love him so much. I'm so blessed to have him in my life.
Port Stephens was awesome. Its such a lovely place, really laid back. I want to go again! i can't get enough of it. So many good memories! But now back to reality.
Do you ever feel like you haven't done enough with your life? Like you haven't accomplished anything of worth? It's definitely my own fault i feel that way. I've been putting things off for too long. I have to get back on my feet, do what i need to do and make the most of every opportunity. It's hard though, because when things don't go your way, you feel like you let yourself down. I feel like just giving up and i lose sight of what it is that i really want. I start to wonder away from God. I lock myself in this dark place and i numb all my senses. i don't want to look at the world, i don't want to hear anyone's voice and i don't want to take any body's outreached hand. I just want to lock myself away and forget about everything, forget about me.
I try to forget about those feelings. Through those times i suppose God just needs me to have faith and lean on him. Trust that he has given me the strength to recover and blessed me with the gift to make things happen. It's so hard for me to remember these things while facing adversity.
Port Stephens was awesome. Its such a lovely place, really laid back. I want to go again! i can't get enough of it. So many good memories! But now back to reality.
Do you ever feel like you haven't done enough with your life? Like you haven't accomplished anything of worth? It's definitely my own fault i feel that way. I've been putting things off for too long. I have to get back on my feet, do what i need to do and make the most of every opportunity. It's hard though, because when things don't go your way, you feel like you let yourself down. I feel like just giving up and i lose sight of what it is that i really want. I start to wonder away from God. I lock myself in this dark place and i numb all my senses. i don't want to look at the world, i don't want to hear anyone's voice and i don't want to take any body's outreached hand. I just want to lock myself away and forget about everything, forget about me.
I try to forget about those feelings. Through those times i suppose God just needs me to have faith and lean on him. Trust that he has given me the strength to recover and blessed me with the gift to make things happen. It's so hard for me to remember these things while facing adversity.
5 Comments:
Oh my gosh!
I know exactly how you feel.
You basically quoted loadsa stuff from my diary there!! - without knowing it!
Im going threw a hard time at the moment and its hard to motivate myself, and ...well, like you said!
We can help each other through it! Drop me an email if you ever need to talk.
All will get better. I guess we both need to trust that God will look after us. Deep down we both know that, its just that we lose sight of it. So, i'm here to remind you!
Take care
We can help each other through it! Drop me an email if you ever need to talk.
All will get better. I guess we both need to trust that God will look after us. Deep down we both know that, its just that we lose sight of it. So, i'm here to remind you!
Take care
Me three! I can relate! Waaah... Hehehe. But we know that God uphlds us with his righteous right hand and thats so soothing to know! Catch ya laterzz. ;) >:D<
I can relate too! Its freaky, I never knew people were going through the same stuff as me!
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