Long absence explained!
I just finished my exams! Yay! I think i failed one but i think i did well on the other! I have a habit of choosing the hardest subjects... i never learn my lesson. I'm so sick of uni this is suppose to be my last semester but then i got an email from the faculty adviser saying that i have to do one more subject in winter school because i completed the wrong one. *shakes head*. They screwed me over i asked them twice whether i was doin the right thing and they said yes both times and now when im about to graduate they tell me something is wrong. Stupid faculty.
That's not the worst of it! I think my dream to become a psychologist is nolonger in reach! My marks are too low to get myself into an honours course coz of this one subject that i failed, which wasnt my fault at all. Because when i did the subject again i got a distinction for my assignment which i receved an F for the first time around. It totally unfair... i handed in the exact same assignment and recieved two totally different marks for it. And what can i do about it? nothing! why? because i wasn't suppose to hand in the same assignment again.
I aplied for ten different university in Australia hopefully i get accepted soem where. Otherwise i think i have to change career paths ... again.
Plan be is to do this Fitness institute of Australia course to become a personal trainer. i know its a drastic change but everything else that i want to do i can't do -financial problems you see. It's all a vicious cycle... you want to get an education so that you can make enough money in the future but to get that education you need money to begin with. Oooohhh how i wish i was smart enough to get a scholarship!
Anyway, on a brighter note i finally got time out with my special someone, he took me to a Thai restaurant which was very nice of him. He said he loves me ^_^. Hopfully he isn't just saying it. You can never tell. At the moment i'm trying to be as optimistc as i can about our relationship. I mean i definitely have my inecurities and doubts. Max you did say i should trust my instincts... if i feel there is something wrong there probably is right? It's so tiring being fearful. Fearing the moment that he might decide to leave.
I had a little talk with the Lord and i suppose i have to stop being afraid. I mean if he decides to leave then he leaves what can i do about it right? I've already given the relationship everything i have to offer and i do my best to make him happy, and in the end that is all you can do. If you know you did everything in your power to make it all work, if he leaves you know its not cause you didn't try. I just have to treasure evey moment i have with him and thank God he gave me the opportunity.
No more being afraid that he'll leave, no more wondering about whether he actually loves me, no more questions about not knowing enough about him. I'm jus so tired of thinking so much. Just live life and be happy right? Learn to be content and satisfied because it could all be so much worse.
Hehehe his mother requested that she have grandkids in three years. I think he got quite freaked out by that. I think he got even more freakked out when i didn't object. I mean i don't plan for one in three years because there's still so much i have to do but if that came to be what happened i don't think i'd be worried either. I love him so much, he is like no other guy ive ever met. He never forces me to do anything i don't want, his never jealous or over protective.
That's not the worst of it! I think my dream to become a psychologist is nolonger in reach! My marks are too low to get myself into an honours course coz of this one subject that i failed, which wasnt my fault at all. Because when i did the subject again i got a distinction for my assignment which i receved an F for the first time around. It totally unfair... i handed in the exact same assignment and recieved two totally different marks for it. And what can i do about it? nothing! why? because i wasn't suppose to hand in the same assignment again.
I aplied for ten different university in Australia hopefully i get accepted soem where. Otherwise i think i have to change career paths ... again.
Plan be is to do this Fitness institute of Australia course to become a personal trainer. i know its a drastic change but everything else that i want to do i can't do -financial problems you see. It's all a vicious cycle... you want to get an education so that you can make enough money in the future but to get that education you need money to begin with. Oooohhh how i wish i was smart enough to get a scholarship!
Anyway, on a brighter note i finally got time out with my special someone, he took me to a Thai restaurant which was very nice of him. He said he loves me ^_^. Hopfully he isn't just saying it. You can never tell. At the moment i'm trying to be as optimistc as i can about our relationship. I mean i definitely have my inecurities and doubts. Max you did say i should trust my instincts... if i feel there is something wrong there probably is right? It's so tiring being fearful. Fearing the moment that he might decide to leave.
I had a little talk with the Lord and i suppose i have to stop being afraid. I mean if he decides to leave then he leaves what can i do about it right? I've already given the relationship everything i have to offer and i do my best to make him happy, and in the end that is all you can do. If you know you did everything in your power to make it all work, if he leaves you know its not cause you didn't try. I just have to treasure evey moment i have with him and thank God he gave me the opportunity.
No more being afraid that he'll leave, no more wondering about whether he actually loves me, no more questions about not knowing enough about him. I'm jus so tired of thinking so much. Just live life and be happy right? Learn to be content and satisfied because it could all be so much worse.
Hehehe his mother requested that she have grandkids in three years. I think he got quite freaked out by that. I think he got even more freakked out when i didn't object. I mean i don't plan for one in three years because there's still so much i have to do but if that came to be what happened i don't think i'd be worried either. I love him so much, he is like no other guy ive ever met. He never forces me to do anything i don't want, his never jealous or over protective.
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